Dating Story Volume 4 Chapter 4

Chapter 4

 

At the end of the year, the new year has begun. On New Year's afternoon, I went to Hatsumode with Luna.

“The scenery is beautiful, isn't it?”

Arriving at the hilltop shrine, I turned around as I climbed the stairs and unconsciously commented.

Although there were residential areas and busy train lines nearby, the panoramic view stretching far into the distance and the clear blue sky in winter were pleasant.

The shrine near A Station, where Luna had been taken by her father and grandmother a long time ago, seemed to be a popular New Year's destination for the locals. Although it was already noon, the line of people who wanted to pray was still long.

“Hmm...you’re right.”

Luna, who responded to me with few words, hid her head in a soft white scarf and put her hands in my coat pockets with a chill.

Luna was dressed in formal attire appropriate for the New Year. The light, cool-colored kimono suited her perfectly and had an elegance that I wanted to see forever.

However, unlike her outfit, her expression was not radiant.

“.........”

Since Christmas, Luna's condition had been lackluster. She should have fully recovered from her fever, so it probably wasn't her physical health.

“...Tomorrow, he said Fukusato-san will come to my house.”

Fukusato was the name of her father's fiancee. She works as an administrator at a hospital in Osaka, and it seems that the two of them met through a dating app and have been dating since this summer.

It seems that they see each other several times a month, going back and forth between Tokyo and Osaka for several months, but she found a new job in Tokyo and recently moved to this area.

They seemed to see each other several times a month, going back and forth between Tokyo and Osaka, but she said she found a new job in Tokyo and recently moved to this area.

“You remember when I told you that my father suddenly couldn't come the day before the sports festival, right? He said he went to look at a month-to-month apartment where his current girlfriend lives. He was contacted by a real estate agent who said, "There is an empty apartment in the place you want. Since there are other people looking, please decide soon’. So he was asked to go to Tokyo to look together. So it doesn't look like it was a business trip.”

“.... Is that so...”

I didn't know what to say, so I could only reply with such an ambiguous answer.

I didn't want to criticize him because he was Luna's father, but I was still angry with him. Even though he had a daughter.

Even though he was a single parent and had the freedom to have a girlfriend and meet her, did that take precedence over the event his daughter was looking forward to?

“…I don't want tomorrow to come. I had promised to play with Nikoru, but I was told to say hello to her first. Fukusato-san seemed surprised by my attitude on Christmas Eve. So I have to apologize to her."

“I see.”

Did Luna really have to apologize? Maybe that was what her father wanted, but I really wasn't sure.

“I really don't want to... Unpleasant things followed one after the other. When March came, it turned out that Fukusato-san was going to move in here. She's going to use the room next to me....That place used to be my grandfather's study, and now it's going to be that person's room.”

“…I see.”

“I really didn't want to...before that happened, I wanted to get out of that house. Nikoru even offered, 'You can stay at my house,' but Nikoru's house only has two rooms and that would be a hassle for her mother, so how could I stay there for a few months, right?”

Luna sighed when she said that.

“I really don't want to... What should I do next? Maybe I should get a part-time job? But can a high school student really rent an apartment to live on her own?”

“Hmm....”

I don't know because I've never looked into it, but it might be difficult without parental permission.

Seeing me at a loss for an answer, Luna suddenly smiled softly.

“I wish I could live with Ryuuto.”

Her words sounded like a joke, but I knew she was half-serious.

“Let's do that.”

“Eh...?”

Hearing my answer, Luna's eyes lit up.

“Well, but how?”

“The two of us will go to a far away city...”

“And where will we stay?”

“In a hotel... that's too expensive.”

In that case, maybe we could have stayed at Luna's grandmother's house or my grandparents' house, just like during the summer vacation... But if we continued to laze around and skip school, our parents would be contacted immediately. So it would be impossible to stay for a long time.

So it seemed like the only option was to go to a boarding house. But before that, we had to find a way to earn money.

“I'm going to work. I don't know how, whether it's a part-time job or day labor.”

“Uhm, but what about school? Ryuuto, you've been trying hard to study at the cram school ....”

That's right, if that's the case, high school life and college entrance exams aren't top priorities.

Besides, I couldn't imagine what kind of daily jobs were available or how to find them. Even if I was lucky enough to get a job, it would probably be physically demanding work, and I lacked confidence in my fitness. Under such conditions, would I be able to make Luna, who wanted three children after marriage, happy?

The more I thought about it, the more I could only imagine failure, and I could only remain silent.

“....Sorry.... that's not realistic at all, right?”

“It’s okay. I'm already happy with just your feelings.”

Luna smiled softly.

“It's impossible now, isn't it? So the 'if we could live together' analogy was just a joke, fufu.”

Seeing my worried face, Luna said with a smile. Her voice was bright and cheerful. I felt hopeless because of my own weakness. Seeing Luna's renewed strength was my savior.

As we continued to talk, the prayer line suddenly moved, pushing us to the front of the collection plate.

Mimicking the adults around us, we did two bows and clapped, then stood side by side with our hands together.

After I finished praying and opened my eyes, Luna, who was next to me, still had her eyes closed.

“What were you praying for before?”

As I entered the shrine with a feeling of relief after getting out of line, Luna asked me.

“Hmm...”

I was unsure if I should say it or not.

“...I hope this year will be a happy one for Luna.”

When I saw her earlier, I couldn't help but pray for that.

“Well, don't worry. This is a prayer for two people, surely it will be conveyed to God.”

My prayer and Luna's prayer. Since everyone should pray for themselves first, the effect transmitted to God should definitely be greater.

Hopefully, there would never be an event that would take away this girl's beautiful smile.

As a last act, I prayed silently.

“Ryuuto...”

Luna's eyes seemed to glaze over and she looked at me.

And then, with an expression like someone crying and laughing at the same time, she opened her mouth.

“...Fufu, sorry. In that case, I may have done something unnecessary.”

“Huh?”

What does that mean? I thought and Luna smiled at me.

“'Please make Ryuuto happy for me too,’ I prayed.”

“...Luna...”

My heart warmed and I immediately felt a touching feeling.

She really was such a good girl. Even though she was in a difficult and miserable state like a root, she was still able to pray for the happiness of others.

“Hey, what would happen in this situation?”

Luna asked me curiously.

“Does that mean that we can both be happy?”

I smiled at her.

“Yeah, maybe.”

We held hands and walked down the steps of the temple.

The sun should be hot right now, but the wind that hit my face was so cold it made my nose hurt.

As we walked close together, seeking each other's warmth, I felt that God was quickly granting Luna's wish.

“Hey, how about we drink some tea first?”

Luna said as we walked down the hill where the shrine was and somehow made our way to Luna's house.

“I don't mind, but... are you sure? Your father and grandmother are home today, right?”

“Yes...that’s why...”

Luna looked down with a dejected expression on her face.

“I don't want to be with my father now...because he might say something about tomorrow.”

“I see...”

I empathized with Luna's feelings, so we went to the front of the station and entered a cafe that was open.

“Haaa... I really don't want to go home.”

As we took our seats and sipped our drinks, Luna suddenly sighed.

“Starting in March... do I have to feel like this every day .... when it's my own home?”

“But you haven't talked to Fukusato-san yet, have you? She might be a good person...”

“Impossible.”

Luna refuted my words and tried to cope with the situation.

“After all, if she becomes Father's marriage partner, that means she'll become my 'new mother', right? To me, mom is just my real mother...”

Luna shook the cup with both hands, as if to melt the caramel macchiato whipped cream in the cup.

Although the heated room was warm and comforting, Luna's expression remained stiff.

“I still can't accept it. Under the same roof my father sleeps with a woman who has nothing to do with me...”

Luna said as she stopped shaking her cup.

“I don't want to think about it... it's so disgusting.”

She said with disgust.

“........”

Lately I've started to understand a bit. Luna wasn't just a nice girl who was understanding and mature.

What she received every day with a smile might actually be “one of the two” for Luna.

As in the case of Operation Two Lotte, Luna was stubborn, conservative and selfish when it came to things she did not want to give up.

She is not only as bright as the sun.

She also has a shadow like the moon. Because she is [Luna]. (TN: Luna's name 月愛 is made up of two kanji, one of which 月 means moon, while the other愛 means love/affection).

She's neither a good girl nor an adult.

She's just a 17-year-old girl, an ordinary girl you can find anywhere.

“Haaa...”

Luna sighed in front of me.

—— If only I could live with Ryuuto.

In my head, Luna's words that she had mentioned earlier kept ringing out. At the same time, the helpless feeling I had just felt returned. Even though she was so sad, could I only rely on God to help her?

If only I were an adult.

If I had my own income and could be independent... I could confidently say, ‘Come to my house. Let's live together.’

With my current condition, I couldn't do anything. It's obvious that if there are two high school teenagers who run away out of sheer emotion, sooner or later they can't last long.

So what could I do?

I have to think.

If I couldn't create a new place for Luna, the only thing I could do was to protect the place where she was now.

But how?

“Luna, can I come to your house now?”

“Eh?”

Luna looked a little surprised.

“But my father and grandmother are still there, you know?”

“Yes. I apologize for bothering your family since New Year's. But I'd like to talk to your father for a moment.”

I didn't know if I could convince him.

But it was the only way.

I've never wanted to grow up so much.

However...

I'm not an adult. Even though I'm annoyed to admit it, I still haven't gotten to that stage yet.

Children can only rely on the protection of adults. It was an inevitable thing.

Therefore, instead of recklessly running away with Luna, I would ask Luna's father to protect Luna's residence.

It was probably the only thing I could do.

 

◇◇◇◇

 

A New Year's special comedy show was playing in the living room of the Shirakawa family.

“So, what did you want to talk about?”

Seeing me sitting on my knees without sitting on the offered kotatsu, Luna's father felt something was wrong and showed a confused look.

Luna's father was wearing casual clothes such as socks and his hair was messy, looking very different from his previous appearance and looking relaxed.

On the kotatsu, there were several plates of osechi-like dishes and several cans of beer. Feeling like I was invading the privacy of someone else's home, a feeling of regret made my body feel stiff.

Grandma Luna, although surprised by my sudden arrival on the first day of the new year, said, ‘Would you like to eat mochi soup? I'll make it now,’ and went into the kitchen. She was the same fashionable and cheerful person Luna had told me about, with gray hair dyed slightly purple, which was beautiful.

“Well, actually...”

I barely managed to get a quivering voice out of my throat.

“...I have a request to make...”

“A request?”

“U-Umm... Luna-san was very surprised when she heard that she would be living with her father's spouse from March... umm, so could you wait a while...?”

I said as I nervously bowed my head, and Luna's father shook his head as if to say, ‘So you want to talk about that’.

“If that's what you want to talk about, I already told Luna.”

I felt a surprised and annoyed look on his face, as if he was asking, 'You came here just to say that?’

Luna, who was sitting upright behind me, felt that look as well. After a quick glance at his daughter, Luna's father opened his mouth.

“I have my own life too. Even as a family, we are all independent individuals. Even though we live together, we have to respect each other's freedom... That's why I think I've given Luna enough freedom. She's seventeen years old and an adult, she should understand this kind of thing.”

When I heard those words, it felt like something stabbed me in the heart.

The remorse and humiliation I felt at the shrine tripled.

“High school students are not adults...”

I wanted to grow up fast and chase after Luna. Neither Luna nor I were adults. High school students are distorted beings.

Although I looked like an adult, had clear interests and preferences, had my own thoughts, and could do things that adults usually did, I sometimes felt like an adult myself.

But I couldn't live alone. I still didn't have a way to make a living.

I feel so frustrated and restless, but what can I do? Because high school students are still considered ‘children.’

And adults have a duty to protect children.

“It is the responsibility of adults to provide a place where children can live in peace.”

Otherwise we wouldn't be able to live.

“Please... don't take Luna-san's place from this house...”

With her head bowed behind me, I could tell from the rustling sound of her clothes that Luna was also bowing her head.

“Even if you say it like that...”

After a few moments of silence, Luna's father began to speak.

“I have my own situation here as well. I didn't want to tell my daughter, so I kept quiet...”

When I lifted my head, Luna's father looked at me awkwardly.

“My future wife has a health problem in gynecology... she has a disease of the uterus. She is already 37 years old, and since she is getting married for the first time, she wants to have a child. It may be difficult to conceive naturally, so she wants to start infertility treatment.”

Scratching his neck casually, Luna's father began to explain quietly.

“We have consulted doctors, but proactive infertility treatment seems to be possible only between a man and a woman. So we need to get married as soon as possible.”

Luna's father tended to look away, so I felt I shouldn't look directly at him, so I turned my eyes to the floor and the walls.

“I haven't completely given up hope of a natural pregnancy... That's why I want to live together right away.”

As a virgin, I kept looking at him with a gaze that kept wandering in different directions without fully understanding what he meant. And with the tension of Luna's father telling me this, my heart was beating abnormally.

I felt completely uninvited and wanted to go home right away.

But...

If I backed out now by saying, “Haa, I see,” Luna's situation wouldn't improve.

“…………”

Luna's father's situation is Luna's own father's problem.

The thing I think about is Luna's happiness.

Because I put Luna first, there was something I had to leave behind.

In my mind, I was thinking about Kurose-san.

Even if I did this, why didn't Luna's father, who should love her the most, do the same?

After taking a deep breath, I opened my mouth again.

“...U-Ummm...I thought there was such a thing as order in everything.”

I probably would have said something very rude to Luna's father by now. But since I was the one who ended my friendship with Kurose-san, I couldn't help but say it.

“I'm sorry if I'm rude, but... Father, no, Luna-san's father... did you divorce Luna's mother to marry this person?”

Luna's father looked very surprised.

“That's impossible. I just met her recently.”

Seizing the opportunity, I pressed further.

“If that's the case... a relationship with that person wouldn't have been possible if you... hadn't cheated on her, right?”

I felt that for the first time in my life I saw a look of confusion on the face of the adult in front of me.

Before I could counterattack, I turned my head completely and searched for words to reassure her.

“Besides... instead of thinking about a child that might not be born yet, can't you prioritize the happiness of the daughter who is already in front of your eyes?”

I wanted to say something cruel. It would definitely hurt Fukusato-san's feelings if she heard it.

But Luna's father was the first to do bad things.

“Because she's already suffered a lot.”

Although I didn't ask who I was referring to, Luna's father must have been able to understand my words. This way, Luna's father's impression of me would definitely be the worst.

But I didn't care. Although I didn't like being hated by others. As long as it was for the sake of protecting Luna, I didn't mind at all.

However, when I saw that Luna's father was still silent, I became even more agitated and opened my mouth to try to defuse the situation.

“Ah, umm, it's not like Luna-san wants you to get married. I think she doesn't mind if it's just a marriage registration first. I just want you to wait a while to live with your partner. At least for another year or so... until Luna graduates from high school.”

I don't know if my words were heard or not, because Luna's father kept his head down and remained silent.

From the direction of the kitchen, I could hear Luna's grandmother humming along with the sound of kitchen knives. She must have been completely oblivious to the situation in the living room.

The popular comedians joking around on the TV looked like they were from another planet.

".........."

I was at a loss for words.

As I endured the horrible silence, Luna's father suddenly stood up.

“Please get out of here right now.”

His face showed obvious anger. I guess it was a natural reaction.

“Y-Yes... I apologize for disturbing you.”

I got up from my kneeling position shaking. I was ashamed of myself for making him angry without being able to convince him.

But when my eyes met Luna's, there was a gentle glint in her eyes.

 

 

Prev   |   ToC   |   Next

close

Posting Komentar

Budayakan berkomentar supaya yang ngerjain project-nya tambah semangat

Lebih baru Lebih lama