Dating Story Volume 4 Chapter 2

Chapter 2

 

On the day that the school trip group activities started during the self-study period, Icchi finally went to school for the first time in a long time.

“Eh... could it be, that person...”

“Ijichi-kun...?”

My classmates began to react excitedly. It's not surprising that their reactions were like this.

Icchi's appearance has changed drastically from before.

Thanks to the removal of the cheek fat that had buried his eyes, the pupils of both eyes were now clearly visible, and the impression of single eyelids with drooping eyes had been removed. The belly that had protruded beneath his uniform had also disappeared, and the fabric of his uniform fell neatly.

In other words, he was already a normal-sized high school boy, the only difference being that he was taller and more muscular.

“Icchi... what happened to you?”

I was finally able to talk to Icchi, who somehow gave the impression of being hard to get close to, after the first period of general studies started and we gathered at the table according to our respective groups.

“Fufufu...”

Icchi smiled triumphantly, giving off a mysterious aura.

“You've already figured it out, huh? Kasshi. I can finally become a 'participating child.'

“Ehhhh!?”

“Are you serious, Icchi!?”

Nisshi, who had been standing next to me for some time, also exclaimed in surprise.

Participating children is a term for KEN fans who can play games with KEN in their video streaming. Icchi and Nisshi are constantly honing their skills to achieve this goal, but there are many people all over the country who dream of this, so it's not a dream that can come true in a short period of time.

“Icchi, aren't you heartbroken because you were rejected by Tanikita-san...?”

Icchi smiled bravely when he saw Nisshi's doubtful face.

“It's true that my heart is broken... but I don't just feel depressed all the time. To overcome this sadness and anger, I immersed myself in the game... Before I knew it, I had been building structures for days and weeks without eating or drinking.”

“Obviously, 'for weeks' is a complete lie.”

“You will die, you know.”

“And when I built a world heritage building in 30 minutes on the 600 craftsman recruitment test, I got a direct DM from KEN...... [You are accepted], he wrote. “

“What did you just say?”

“Could it be that among the new architecture kids introduced in yesterday's stream...”

“Yes. The account called [The Extrovert Yusuke] is my account name.”

For those who don't know what we're talking about, Icchi immersed himself in building in a digital LEGO block game called “Yourcraft”. (TN: A pun on the game Minecraft)

From the beginning, Icchi has always been a science student who is good at math and calculations, so it is not surprising that his architectural skills are superior to others. It seems that this hidden talent began to blossom after being dumped by Tanikita-san and playing mindless games under extreme circumstances.

“Seriously...!”

Nisshi held his head in frustration at being overtaken by Icchi. Seeing Nisshi's reaction like that, I suddenly realized.

“Huh? Nisshi, why are you in our class? We have self-study periode...”

"My class is in self-study periode too, you know!”

Nisshi complained with a whiny face when I expressed my doubts.

“Please help me! In the school trip grouping, my class numbered 33 people, you know? I just noticed that there were already 4 groups of 7 people, and I couldn't help but join the remaining 4 people, but the 4 people turned out to be two girls and two boys, and they all turned out to be dating!!! I'm just a third wheel caught in an intimate situation on their double date! I feel like dying instead of joining that group~~~!”

“Uwaaaaaaa......”

The unimaginably harsh conditions accidentally turned my face into that of a character from Masuda Kosuke's gag manga Biyori.

“I promise I won't bother you, so put it under the table or whatever... I'm begging you...”

“O-Okay, I understand.”

Luckily, from now on until the school trip, the free periods are quite free, so the students are allowed to go to the library. As long as Sensei isn't around, there's nothing wrong if Nisshi alone can join our class.

By the way, the girl's faction is going to the library to get some materials.

“...By the way, is Yamana-san still the same?”

Nisshi suddenly asked me while looking around.

The meaning of this question was probably, “Is she still keeping her distance from Sekiya-san?”

“Yes, the same as always.”

“Oh, I see. Hmmm...”

Nisshi replied in an attitude that pretended to be relaxed, but his eyes still darted here and there. Nisshi's one-sided love seems to continue.

I'd rather support Sekiya-san myself, so I can't actively support Nisshi, but as his friend, I want to look after him warmly.

“We're back~!”

Luna shouted happily at this time, leading the group of girls with materials after returning from the library.

“Ah, so Nishina Ren here too.”

“What are you doing here?”

Since he was suddenly asked by Yamana-san and Luna, Nisshi only replied nervously, “Yes, there's something,” because Yamana-san called his name.

“Oh yeah, Ijichi-kun, would you mind joining our group?”

After being asked by Luna, The Extrovert Yusuke, or you could say Icchi (Ver.2.0), just replied “....yes” in a low voice and nodded. It seems that the inside is still the same as the previous Icchi.

“......”

I was curious and checked Tanikita-san's reaction, but unexpectedly I witnessed something that couldn't be ignored.

Tanikita-san was staring at Icchi. Her cheeks flushed and her mouth trembled as she muttered “Hawawa...”. Then, as if suddenly overcome with embarrassment, she closed her eyes and raised the book she was holding in front of her face to separate herself from Icchi.

“....!?”

Wh-What was that? Is this really the reaction of people who have completely rejected him?

My question was answered immediately when Icchi left his seat.

“Right, right, did you see that? Ijichi-kun.”

Icchi, who was surrounded by cheerful girls, took on the role of returning materials that were no longer needed to replace everyone, and Nisshi replied that he would go with him. Tanikita-san then spoke excitedly to the other girls.

“Uhmm, what?”

“Oh, he's gotten thinner, hasn't he~. I was surprised.”

Luna and Yamana-san replied. Kurose-san was reading the material book by herself, assuming that she wasn't being addressed.

“Not that one, I mean he just got really cool, you know? His face looks a lot like Lee Joon's.”

Who is that...? When I turned to Luna, her eyes met mine and she opened her lips to say that the person in question was a VTS member.

I see, the Korean artist Tanikita-san likes, huh.

“OMG, it’s really bad. My heart is beating fast, you know. If I'm not mistaken, Ijichi-kun's height is the same as Lee Joon's, right? Isn't that really similar to Lee Joon!”

“E-Ehh... is it really that similar?”

“Well, don't you like Jemi more, Akari?”

When Luna and Yamana-san responded to her ramblings, the corners of Tanikita-san's mouth twitched.

“I'm not his fan! I'm a real fan of Lee Joon.”

“Hmm~ Is that so?”

“Then why don't you just go out with Ijichi-kun?”

Upon hearing Luna's words, Tanikita-san's expression immediately became shocked.

“W-What are you talking about!? How could I do that! I already completely rejected Ijichi-kun's confession at the school festival and made him miss school for a month, you know!”

Oh, so she realized that, huh... Still, her reaction was only that. After all, she is a girl with a strong heart.

“I also said, ‘I don't know much about Ijichi-san, but does that mean you only like my face?’ Doesn't that mean I'm the same, just by looking at his face! No thanks, really! Apart from being lame, plus it seems like I really don't know shame! I won't even do it until I die!”

Tanikita-san covered her face and flapped her legs.

Out of curiosity, I operated my smartphone on my desk and searched for a picture of ‘Lee Joon’. It's true that his facial appearance is quite similar to Icchi's appearance now, but his hair color and hairstyle look different in each photo, and he's wearing makeup, so to be honest, I still can't say for sure.

Well, the fans themselves say that the two of them look a lot alike, so maybe it’s really true.

“That's why it's impossible! Don't ever tell anyone directly!”

“Ehh~ What a shame, you know~! Ijichi-kun probably still likes Akari, too, so I think you can do it with one try.”

“Besides, he was so shocked when Akari rejected him that he lost a lot of weight, right? He would have accepted you right away.”

After Luna and Yamana-san said that, Tanikita-san still shook her head stubbornly.

“No. I still don't want to do it. I would never confess after saying something like that to him.”

Then she suddenly looked in my direction.

“Kashima-kun too, don't ever tell Ijichi-kun. If you dare, I will finish you off."

She threatens me with a frightening look if I do something, and I tremble with fear inside.

“O-Of course...!”

Icchi himself was in the mood to make it to the 'Participating Children', and I thought I should leave them alone for now.

However, there is one thing I really want to confirm.

“But… umm, Tanikita-san?”

“Hmm?”

She looked at me in surprise because I don't usually talk to her.

“Icchi is still a virgin, you know?”

Tanikita-san frowned so clearly.

“....then what's the problem?”

“Huh?”

Didn't you talk about that with Yamana-san the other day... while I was thinking that, Tanikita-san opened her mouth with a serious expression on her face.

“Kashima-kun. I am going to teach you the most powerful technique that can make a woman feel aroused for no reason.”

Tanikita-san said to me as I gasped at her great enthusiasm.

“It was 'His looks are my ideal type'.”

“............”

“With that in mind, all other conditions become secondary.”

“...........”

What a double standard girl.

The answer was so amazing that I even felt refreshed.

I was so astonished that I couldn't say anything else to Tanikita-san, who looked at me confidently.

 

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Similar study activities continued the following week, and Nisshi still mingled with our class in the same way.

Since it's almost like self-study, this moment becomes a time when anything is possible, including falling asleep and skipping class. Icchi, who received a new architectural assignment from KEN, fell asleep as soon as he cleared his desk due to lack of sleep every day. I tend to stay up late at night because I have to study for semester exams and tutoring school exams, affected by his actions, and fall asleep too.

When I woke up, it had been about 30 minutes since free time started. Luna was not in her seat, and there was no sign of Kurose-san or Tanikita-san. I bet they went to the library together.

The only people left at our group table were Yamana-san, Nisshi, and Icchi, who were fast asleep. Nisshi sat on Tanikita-san's chair and faced Yamana-san without doing anything. It felt like the topic of their conversation was suddenly cut off and there was an awkward silence.

They hadn't even noticed that I was awake. I felt like I had to let it go somehow, so I turned my face back to the table and just looked at them.

“...B-By the way.”

Nisshi opened his mouth.

Nisshi... Among the three of us, Nisshi is the one who seems to have a self-conscious teenager, and he never talks to girls on his own. I was secretly impressed by him.

“We both have the kanji '' in our surnames, right?”

For a moment, I thought, ‘Huh? What are this guy talking about?’ But Nishina and Yamana... if you think about it, there's some truth to it. I never noticed it at all. (TN: The Na ending at the end of the their surname use is the same kanji)

“Yeah.”

Yamana-san replied with a bitchy and indifferent face. Her character is not like that because she is in front of Nisshi, but she is always like that in class..

“What's wrong with taht?”

When asked again, Nisshi looked a little uncomfortable.

“I-It's nothing... but, I wonder if there's something between the lines.”

“What?”

"No, um... something like...”

Nisshi stuttered and struggled to get his voice out.

“So-Something like fate?”

He said it...

If you had said that, even Yamana-san might have realized Nisshi's feelings.

When I gasped at the thought, Yamana-san opened her mouth to Nisshi without changing her stance at all.

“Don't you want to flirt with me? You're still ten years too young for that.”

I would be heartbroken to hear such an answer, but Nisshi was not affected at all.

“Maybe.”

He looked at Yamana-san intensely.

“If I don't do something, I won't be able to progress.”

In my delusion, the duo of male comedians in polo shirts started singing and dancing, “Of course boss~”, but something seemed to resonate with Yamana-san, and a slight blush appeared on her cheeks.

“I already have a boyfriend, you know.”

“I know.”

Nisshi replied to Yamana-san's blunt words with a firm tone.

"But you can't reach him, can you? Until the entrance exam is over.”

The atmosphere became tense and Yamana-san looked at Nisshi with a serious look.

“...Do you intend to become Senpai's replacement?”

Nisshi nodded nervously.

“I-I will try my best.”

Yamana-san looked at Nisshi with a suspicious look.

“I can guarantee it. It's really impossible.”

“You won't know until you try, right!”

Nisshi replied, raising his voice as if he was annoyed. Then he looked at the classroom door and hurried back under the table.

The ones who entered the classroom turned out to be Luna, Kurose-san and Tanikita-san. I'm sure Nisshi reflexively hides, thinking that Sensei is back.

“We're back~”

“Eh, Luna, these people don't want to get up at all, you know. Should I wake them up by beating them? They haven't done anything today.”

Yamana-san complained to Luna. The “those people” she meant were me and Icchi.

I closed my slightly open eyelids and pretended to be asleep again. All these actions were to fool them that I had been awake a while ago and had listened to the conversation between Nisshi and Yamana-san.

“It's okay. I'm sure he's exhausted.”

From her voice, I guessed that Luna was sitting there laughing.

“Lately, Ryuuto seems to be busy with his studies. I think he might be sleep deprived. Ryuuto's part, let me do it.”

Luna's loving voice touched my heart.

“In that case, let me do Ijichi-kun's part!”

Tanikita-san said excitedly as well.

“Kyaa, his sleeping face is very similar to Lee Joon's too! I want to take a picture! Sensei hasn't come yet, has he? Do you think I can take out my smartphone or not?”

“Ahahaha, that's called peeking, Akari~”

“Besides, why can you see the sleeping faces of the VTS members?”

“Because the members often upload their locker room videos.”

Tanikita-san replied to Luna and Yamana-san.

I'm really enjoying my youth, I thought.

Everyone has feelings for someone.

Even if it's just a one-sided love.

While thinking that, I opened my eyelids slightly and closed them again in surprise at the person whose eyes met mine.

The figure of Kurose-san looking at me and smiling calmly remained vivid in my mind for a while.

 

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One day, I was on my way home from the tutoring school. As I finished studying for the exam and was walking down a dark street toward the station, I was suddenly called from behind.

“Kashima-kun.”

I was surprised. I knew who the person was before I even turned around.

“Kurose-san... Is your class over already?”

Kurose-san walked up to me and looked at me with a smile.

“No, I'm just out from the study room. I came in late because I had to study for the exam."

“Oh, me too. Besides, there's an exam next week, right?”

“Really~. I want to watch Kino-san's new video, and the videos I want to watch are piling up.”

“Speaking of videos, I watched the video Kurose-san recommended the other day.”

“Eh, really!?”

Then we started talking about streaming video games, and we went home together chatting enthusiastically.

“By the way, since Kashima-kun mentioned it, I watched KEN-san's werewolf game video for the first time a few days ago.”

“Oh, and how was it?”

“It feels so exciting! There may be some people who can play werewolves better than KEN-san, but there aren't many people who can make video games as interesting as KEN-san.”

“Is that so?”

When Kurose-san, who was a fan of werewolf games, told me this, I felt happy as if I was the one being praised.

“Then you can try watching the video game Yourcraft.”

“Ohh, that said Ijichi-kun appeared too, right? I heard you talking the other day.”

“Right, that one. I think that one is easier to follow because of the arrival of new people.”

“That's right. In that case, try to tell me the title.”

“Yes... wait, I'll look for it. Uwahh, so much already. The videos KEN uploaded are just too many.”

So, in no time at all, we finally arrived at Station K.

“Kurose-san, are you riding a bike today?”

When I asked her at the roundabout in front of the station, Kurose-san averted her eyes slightly and shook her head.

“No. I'm walking.”

“Oh, I see..."

I felt confused because I was reminded of the last time I brought her home. I happened to run into Luna waiting in front of Kurose-san's house and got a suspicious look from her.

But it was already 10 p.m. Even if we're just friends, I wonder what it's like to be a guy who leaves a girl to go home alone.

After hesitating for a moment, I came to the conclusion...

“...I can get home this way. Let's turn off the main road and go to the grocery store at the end of the road together.”

That way, I could drop her off halfway with the natural excuse, “I happened to run into a classmate of mine who was on her way home.”

“Thank you.”

Kurose-san looked a little sad, then blushed and said.

“I'm really sorry about the other day. After that, you have to be scolded by Luna, right?”

After we left, Kurose-san asked me something like that.

I think he was referring to the time we met Luna the other day.

“Ahh... no, she's not angry at all.”

“Huh, really?”

Kurose-san replied with a surprised face.

“Luna rarely gets angry with her friends, but when she gets angry in front of me, she looks really scary. So I think she showed that side of herself to Kashima-kun as well.”

“Eh? U-No... well...”

Luna's face when she was angry, huh... I had seen her show more emotion than usual on several occasions, like when she sulked like a spoiled child or when she got jealous, but I couldn't imagine a situation where she would be so angry.

“I guess treating your own boyfriend and sister is different, huh?”

Kurose-san narrowed her eyes slightly, as if she was going back in time.

“The two of us are best friends as well as rivals... at least that's what I think.”

“...I wonder what Shirakawa-san's expression is when she's angry?”

When I asked, Kurose-san turned her eyes to the distance.

“I think the incident that upset Luna the most was the 'Chi-chan' incident.”

After saying that, she smiled slightly.

'Chi-chan' is a toy cat doll. When I was little, when I went to play with my aunt, I looked at the mall and my aunt bought it for me.”

We walked side by side on the wide sidewalk of the main street. Kurose-san continued to talk while looking down at her feet, which were illuminated by the street lamp.

“But I wasn't really into stuffed animals. So I brought it home and left it alone, then Luna asked me, ‘This stuffed animal is for me, okay?’ I said, ‘Sure, go ahead,’ then Luna named it [Chi-chan] and started making it cute by wrapping ribbons around it and dressing it up in clothes made of handkerchiefs.”

When I imagine Luna's childhood figure like that, it makes me smile and my heart flutters.

“When I saw that, I thought Chi-chan looked really cute and I missed her. So when Luna went out to play with Chi-chan, I asked her to bring Chi-chan back, but she suddenly got very angry and hit me, saying, 'No!’ I was only about six years old, but I remember it vividly. I was really afraid of Luna then.”

Kurose-san bit her lip slightly and bowed her head.

“When I think about it now, I guess I was the one who was wrong. But I cried so hard back then because I thought she didn't have to be so angry.”

With a faint smile, Kurose-san lifted her face. Her gaze was greeted by a crescent moon floating low in the night sky.

“I really admire Luna, don't I? So I wanted something that Luna would like. Maybe it doesn't have to be just Chi-chan.”

Then she laughed at me who was listening in silence.

“We really don't look alike, do we?”

“U-Umm...”

“Just because it looks cute doesn't mean it can make someone popular. People love her because Luna is Luna. That's Luna's natural talent.”

Kurose-san often talks about Luna. Even though we had the same number of conversations in Game Streaming, when it came to Luna, she spoke more often because she probably had a lot of information about Luna.

And I don't think it's surprising because she wants to talk about it.

That’s right.

Kurose-san really loves Luna. Even now, it's still the same.

She loves her so much that she really wanted to talk to someone about it.

“I'm jealous of Luna... I don't have the talent to be liked by people.”

Her figure looking up at the moon and telling me how she feels is heartbreaking.

I think she is a beautiful girl. From then to now.

I really want to see this figure. It was four years ago when I had a glimmer of hope by confessing my feelings to her, but it was fleeting and fell apart.

“That's not true at all. Since the first year of junior high school, Kurose-san was very popular.”

I said this, remembering that time with bitterness in my throat.

If it weren't for that broken heart, I wouldn't be who I am today.

I was ready to be rejected, just as I was then, so that I could confess my feelings to Luna and end my reckless unrequited love as soon as possible.

The present is an extension of the past.

I have “no experience,” but that doesn't mean I've never been in love.

If you call the process of falling in love with someone until that feeling is buried ‘love,’ then I'm falling in love beautifully.

I have given you my first love.

It may be something you don't want.

Still, I do not regret falling in love with you.

“...First year of junior high school, huh?”

Kurose-san muttered under her breath, as if she wanted to chew on my words.

“I was full of lies back then.”

Kurose-san looked at me with a self-deprecating smile.

“Back then, I was acting 'like a girl who looks like Luna’. That's why I think the person who made Kashima-kun fall in love is Luna.”

"No, that's not true at all.”

I shook my head in disagreement.

“Kurose-san is Kurose-san.”

Kurose-san has been completely different from Luna since then.

I like Kurose-san's uniqueness.

“That's why... If everyone knows what kind of girl Kurose-san really is, I'm sure there will be many people who will like you in the future.”

However, Kurose-san's expression didn't lighten at all.

“There are a lot of people, huh...”

Kurose-san muttered with a lonely smile while looking at the moon with a distant gaze.

“...As I thought, I can't defeat that moon, can I?”

It was then that I realized.

Her true intentions.

— I only like you out of my own selfishness.

On the day of the sports festival, I thought I understood the true feelings hidden in the words Kurose-san spoke on the roof of the school building.

Ever since that day, I've wondered.

Why did Kurose-san, who should know that I have no intention of breaking up with Luna, continue to "selfishly love" me?

When Icchi confessed her feelings to Tanikita-san at the festival, Tanikita-san said something like this.

— Confessing your feelings is not a game. If it's a gacha with a 1/10 chance, you can win once if you play it ten times, but even if you confess your feelings to the same person ten times at the same time, it doesn't mean you'll get an "okay" answer just once, you know. If it doesn't work, it definitely doesn't work. Also, the real world cannot be replayed.

— Isn't that also a form of love, not forcing your feelings on someone you like?

At that time, I was thinking about Kurose-san.

I hesitated to think if Kurose-san felt the same way about me.

But the truth is different.

Kurose-san just didn't play the gacha because she knew she wouldn't get what she wanted.

Then she waits for bugs that might happen at certain moments.

The bug where I chose Kurose-san over Luna.

That must be really painful.

Up until now, I only thought about my relationship with Luna and worried about my relationship with Kurose-san.

If I had been completely in tune with Kurose-san's feelings from the beginning, I might have realized the path I should have taken much sooner..

I'm sorry about that.

──Take care of your own world. Enjoy your life as freely as possible. Are you sure you can't be friends with other girls for the rest of your life?

Sekiya-san said that to me.

I think there's an order to things.

First of all, I didn't have any girlfriends until I started dating Luna. Even talking to girls is rare.

It all started with Luna.

Since I started dating Luna, a new world has opened up for me.

Without Luna, I would never be friends with the Kurose-san I met. Even Yamana-san and Tanikita-san would change classes without ever talking to me.

All this is thanks to the existence of Luna.

For me, Luna is the most important thing.

That's why I don't want another girl to be close to me if I lose my love for Luna.

I'm different from Sekiya-san. The concept of girl friends is something that never existed in my world.

So I guess this is the choice I'm going to make.

“I'm sorry, Kurose-san.”

Kurose-san looked at me suspiciously when I said this after a moment of silence.

“Maybe it's better if we don't talk to each other anymore.”

Kurose-san's eyes widened and her expression froze.

“Kurose-san is an extraordinary girl, and we both have the same hobbies... It feels really good to talk to you. So... I'm really sorry about this so far.”

I stuttered to Kurose-san without looking at her face.

“Even if time passes... assuming that one day when we can be friends again... I want to talk to Kurose-san again.”

I know this is a selfish statement. I might never be friends with her again if someone said that to me. I think that possibility is very high.

Nevertheless, I had no choice but to take this path.

“Thank you for agreeing to be one of my few friends in such a short time.”

Kurose's expression when I saw her again was surprisingly gentle.

“You're welcome, me too.”

As if she had been prepared for this day to come, Kurose-san smiled softly.

Without realizing it, we had arrived in front of the convenience store at the intersection.

“Then goodbye...”

After saying my piece, I couldn't think of anything else to continue the conversation, so I tried to turn around to leave.

“Kashima-kun.”

That was when Kurose-san stopped me.

“Finally, can I ask you something?”

“Y-Yes?”

Kurose-san smiled faintly and said to me as I looked back.

“When we were in the first year of junior high school, why did you like me?”

“Eh...”

I didn't expect to be asked such a question, so I was confused and speechless.

It brought back memories of when I fell in love with Kurose-san. The voices coming from the chair next to me, her breathing, the sound of her chattering... My heart was racing with every move she made.

Even though she was a beautiful girl, she was very kind to me. So I thought maybe she liked me.

How could I not like her.

“Because you are a cute girl.”

No matter how much I thought about it, I couldn't come up with a good answer, so I had no choice but to say it.

“Oh, I see.”

Kurose-san raised her eyebrows slightly and smiled.

“... May I also ask you a question?”

I also asked a question that had been bothering me for a long time.

“Why do you like me now, after you dumped me in the past...?”

When Kurose-san was spreading slander about Luna, she told me that she fell in love with me after I listened to her and gave her hard advice.

But is that really all it is? Is that really all it takes for her to still have feelings for me even after being rejected once?

I want to know what's in her heart, her true feelings.

“..........”

Kurose-san looked at me intently and smiled as if to calm her nerves.

“Back then... when I met Kashima-kun, the most important thing for me was to be liked by others. That's where my heart was when my father wouldn't choose me.”

Sounds like a story I've heard before.

“To be liked by a boy means to make him feel love for me, right? I don't care about anyone. I want as many boys as possible to like me. When a boy confesses his feelings to me, I feel relieved. The reason I rejected Kashima-kun is because I have no intention of dating anyone. It's not important for me to like someone, and if I date someone, I can't be popular anymore.”

I listened to the story in silence.

“The reason I like Kashima-kun now is because... I hated myself for being like that. I thought it was impossible to get people to like me again. I was jealous of Luna, who was still liked by everyone even though she had a boyfriend. It also frustrated me that Kashima-kun trusted Luna more than me. Even though you used to like me...if only I had reached out to her back then...then all of your kindness would have been mine, but...now most of your kindness is directed toward Luna...but sometimes you still show it to me...even though all of Kashima-kun's kindness used to be mine.”

Kurose-san bit her lips and muttered with a somber expression on her face.

“When I think about it, my head is already filled with Kashima-kun.”

When I remained silent, Kurose-san looked up and looked at me.

“So ridiculous, isn't it? I understand that myself.”

Kurose-san then smiled stiffly and turned away.

“Then I'll go home first. Bye-bye.”

“Ah, yes...”

When I saw her back receding, I began to think.

Ah, I see.

Maybe I was “Chi-chan” in her eyes.

──If a girl approaches you in the future, I dare say she's not interested in you, but she's aware of Luna's existence.

I remembered what Yamana-san said the other day.

Because Kurose-san admired Luna.

──Even if the guy isn't your type at all, you might sometimes think, "If this is the guy she chooses, he must be a great guy," and the guy will look 50% more handsome.

As Tanikita-san said, that kind of psychology is possible.

My feelings were mixed as I was filled with both relief and disappointment.

Without even turning to look at me, Kurose-san walked away from me.

The person Kurose-san saw was not me, but Luna.

If that was the case, wouldn't her true happiness be in regaining her bond with Luna?

“I don't know, maybe I'm thinking too much.”

As a cherry boy, I will never know the truth, no matter how hard I try to imagine it.

For now, I hope that Luna's friendship plan can go smoothly and that the relationship between the two of them can return to normal.

Because there's nothing more I can do.

While I was thinking about that, Kurose-san's figure became smaller and smaller.

Kurose walked down the last street to her house. It's a narrow alleyway that stretches for hundreds of meters, and as I recall, there was a lonely shrine in front of the apartment, which gave it a somewhat ominous feel.

Kurose-san was about to walk past the shrine and almost reached her apartment.

When I thought of going home after watching her from afar....

Behind Kurose-san's figure, which was already the size of a pea, another figure suddenly appeared and walked toward her.

As I looked at her uncomfortably.... after a while, I could hear someone screaming.

It was a scream that came from far away, the sound so low that the people on the main street didn't notice it.

Since I had seen that figure before, I was worried and ran closer to the shrine area out of curiosity. I couldn't see Kurose-san's figure anymore. I wonder if that scream I just heard was just my imagination, and if she has reached her apartment?

I hope so.

As I was about to cross the entrance of the temple, hoping anxiously.

“...!?”

A black figure jumped in front of me.

“Uwaa!?”

I jumped back in surprise, and a figure that looked like a man came running behind me.

“.........”

It turned out not to be Kurose-san.

I looked around for her whereabouts and found...

“Kurose-san!?”

Kurose-san was lying limp on the shrine grounds.

“Are you okay...!”

As I approached and called out to her, Kurose-san staggered to her feet.

“Kashima... kun...?”

“What happened to you, Kurose-san...”

“...I was attacked by an unknown man...”

Kurose-san looked really pale and trembled as she said this.

The figure that just jumped in front of me must be the culprit.

“When I screamed, he pushed me instead...”

I couldn't leave her alone in this state, so I gave her my shoulder and helped her up.

After the suspect had long since fled, I took Kurose-san with me to the nearest police station.

“Attempted molestation? I knew that shrine over there was pretty deserted.”

“You must be shocked. Please tell us what happened in that room.”

Two policemen came out and led a trembling Kurose-san into a back room.

“And you? Are you her friend?”

One of the older cops asked me, and I was stunned.

The two of us aren't friends anymore... We're just classmates.

“No... I'm just her classmate. I was just passing by.”

I wondered how the policeman would feel from my reaction, and the policeman suddenly became unfriendly.

“Oh, I see. Then leave it to us. Your parents will be worried if you don't come home as well.”

“Ah, yes...”

The sliding door of the police station was closed, so I had no choice but to leave and start walking.

The main road near the police station is well lit and there are many cars moving around. The adults on their way home from work walked quickly down the sidewalk, overtaking me as they walked slowly.

If it were the previous me, I'm sure I wouldn't have let Kurose-san go through that. I'll take her back to her apartment.

But I chose this path myself.

Even as I thought that, the weight of regret tightened in my chest and made me feel uneasy.

What should I do...

After walking aimlessly for a while with my hands in my pockets, I suddenly stopped when my apartment building came into view.

I took out my smartphone and called Luna.

After the fifth call, my call was finally connected.

“Hello, Ryuuto? Unbelievably, Ryuuto called me all of a sudden! Hurray!”

When I heard Luna's cheerful voice, I felt somehow relieved and my smile broke out.

“Hello Luna...”

“Hmm?”

“Could you call your mom?”

Luna seemed to be surprised by my question.

“Eh, mom? You mean my mom?”

“Yes...”

After hesitating for a moment, I began to explain.

“Kurose-san was attacked by a molester some time ago and is currently at the police station. I want her guardian to come pick her up.”

I'm sure Kurose-san or the police will contact her later, and maybe I won't have to tell her about it.

Even though I wasn't wrong at all, suddenly my body and soul felt like I was being hurt by a stranger... There was nothing else I could do for Kurose-san, who might feel a little lonely in front of the police officers, since I wasn't even her friend, just this is all I can do for her.

Even if we are no longer friends, we are still classmates. I didn't want to deny my desire to do something for her as a classmate.

Besides, I need to talk to Luna.

It seems to be the only way to get rid of this fog of fear that is in my chest.

“Eh, Maria! Uh, yeah, I see... I'll contact her first...”

Luna said in a confused tone.

“Eh, could it be that you were with Maria?”

“About that... I wonder if we could meet now? I'll go near your house.”

She didn't answer at all.

“Luna?”

When I asked if she couldn't hear me, she finally answered.

“Ah, yes... okay, I understand.”

For some reason, her voice sounded dark and somber.

 

◇◇◇◇

 

We met at a convenience store about 50 meters from Luna's house.

I could see Luna walking from the front of her house.

Luna, who was wearing a coat over her casual clothes, had a serious look on her face.

“What is it? To have to meet at this hour... you must have something to talk about, right?”

Luna, who came up to me, said at the beginning of the opening.

“...Yes, actually...”

Just as I was about to speak...

Tears started to flow from Luna's eyes.

“W-What's wrong?”

“I don't want to hear it.”

Luna pushed me away with her hands and wiped away her tears with her fingertips.

“I really can't stand it... you're with Maria, aren't you? I can't stand to hear it...”

“What? What I wanted to say was exactly...”

“No!”

Luna shook her head like a spoiled child.

“I won't ask you... I didn't hear anything and I'll pretend I wasn't called here...”

“What are you talking about...”

“You cheated, right? With Maria... Since this is about Ryuuto, it's not an affair, right? That kind of thing is just called a 'change of heart', right?”

“You're wrong...”

“I don't care!”

Interrupting my words, Luna pleaded desperately while crying.

“If it's Ryuuto, I'll forgive you for cheating...! I won't be contacting you for a while, so take your time and think about it. Don't tell me that you want to break up... and come back to me...”

“Wait Luna.”

“See you...”

Her turned body looked like it was in slow motion.

I wanted to stop it, but I couldn't make a sound.

Luna had already started walking away.

“Wait ...”

My voice froze in my throat as I tried to scream.

 

I've always admired KEN's unwavering fast shooting when playing FPS games.

I'm always indecisive, and it's the same in games.

Which enemy should I shoot first? What about the position of my friends? I was afraid that if I got shot... Thoughts like that would swirl around in my head and I would lose concentration and before I knew it, I would miss my shot.

It is the same in the real world.

I couldn't chase it through the halls of school when Luna's smartphone broke, or on that rainy day.

I always regret it.

Even though I always have the answer inside.

The arrow in my heart always points at Luna.

But if I run after her, if I beg her, but she rejects me, what should I do? I'm afraid of this possibility. I'm afraid of being hurt by her rejection.

But how long do you want this to go on?

The party in a dating relationship is both of us.

Whether it's the meeting place or the purpose of the date, I always leave it up to Luna and just let her express her intentions.

Am I okay with that?

Isn't it natural for Luna to feel anxious?

So I have to show my courage.

Courage to express my will.

 

“Wait a minute, Luna!”

An office worker coming out of the convenience store looked at me curiously when I called out loud.

Luna stopped. I caught up with her and took her hand.

“I told you, it's not like that.”

I said immediately to Luna, whose back was still turned to me.

“You always do this. You always run away without listening to me first... Let's talk about this carefully, just the two of us. Didn't you say so yourself...”

Luna let go of my hand and turned to me.

“I don't want to... I'm afraid... I'm afraid...”

Luna looked at me with a tear streaked face.

“I don't want any more. I don't want the people I care about to leave me... I want to become a family with Ryuuto, but if I break up with you before that happens, I'll lose someone as important as my family again.”

Passersby pretended not to see us as we stood by the electric pole next to the convenience store.

“That's why I feel like I should put the brakes on my feelings, like I shouldn't like Ryuuto any more, and I want to run away... But Ryuuto never betrayed me, you always waited for me even though I was always selfish .... Why me? Why me? Even though I'm not a good girl.”

“Luna...”

“I always feel anxious, you know. With me being like this... Ryuuto might turn to another girl one day.”

Luna stopped me with a look and lowered her head.

“Maria is a girl who has a firm stand. She's different from me, who just goes with the flow. .... If I were a boy, I would rather go out with Maria than myself.”

“Did you even thinki that far?”

The anxiety I felt earlier had subsided as I listened to Luna's heartfelt outburst.

I think she's beautiful and adorable.

Although she was a wonderful girl, she still had complexes and longed for someone who had something she didn't have, and I felt close to her humanity.

“Then let me tell you first.”

After hearing my words, Luna looked up and saw me.

“The only person I want to date... the only person I want to have a relationship with is... only you, Luna.”

A hint of excitement immediately appeared on Luna's face.

Although it feels embarrassing, this is not the time to be ashamed.

Even if I had a million loves inside me, if I didn't express them through words or gestures, it would be useless.

At least for Luna.

The reason why I didn't tell Luna everything that happened between me and Kurose-san wasn't because I had an ulterior motive that I might have a chance with Kurose-san, but because I was thinking about Luna's relationship with Kurose-san. I realized that if I told her everything, it might make their relationship even more awkward.

But if my wishy-washy attitude of pretending to be nice had made Luna uncomfortable, then ....

It's only natural that she can't feel love from a guy like that.

Whether I talk about it or not, the things that happened between me and Kurose-san will never change.

I have to tell her everything, and then we'll decide what to do.

Let's trust Luna... Trust her and let go of this restlessness in my heart.

As I thought about it, Sekiya-san's words came back to me.

── Sometimes it's better if she doesn't know. Sharing everything with your girlfriend doesn't mean that it shows your sincerity.

That might be true.

But didn't Luna already tell me?

── The two of us are really different, aren't we? That's why we sometimes misunderstand each other like the other day... So I think we should tell each other what we think so that it doesn't happen again.

I'm the one who's dating Luna. Not Sekiya-san.

Then I should have believed what Luna said. From the beginning, before asking anyone else.

After a long silence, I took a deep breath and opened my mouth.

“I've never been popular or skilled... sorry, this is the only way I can show my sincerity.”

I then told Luna, who gave me a strange look.

“I just stopped being friends with Kurose-san before, so I can't cooperate with Luna's friendship plan anymore.”

“Ehh ....”

Luna gasped in surprise.

“What do you mean? But when Maria was attacked by the molester... weren't you with her?”

“No, I just happened to meet her at the K station on my way home from cram school... after that we parted ways at the intersection... I think she probably wouldn't have been attacked by a molester if I had been with her.”

“..........”

“The story I'm about to tell may sound complicated to Luna, but... I want to tell you how I really feel about Kurose-san.”

Luna looked grim and nodded softly.

“Around last summer, when someone took a picture of me hugging Kurose-san... The day before that, Kurose-san called me to the gymnasium warehouse and confessed her feelings for me.”

Luna watched me with bated breath.

“When we were alone together, hugging... then I pushed her down.”

Luna opened her eyes wide.

“Of course I didn't do more than that... I'm really sorry for keeping it a secret until now.”

In fact, Kurose-san tried to seduce me by calling me and pretending to be Luna by imitating her voice, but no matter what I said, it was nothing more than an excuse.

“Because of that incident .... it's hard not to think of Kurose-san as a girl... and I think it's better that we're not friends anymore.”

Luna was silent for a while.

“...Why didn't you do it until the end? There were only two of you in the gymnasium warehouse, right?”

Luna opened her mouth and looked at me with an expression that couldn't be read emotionally.

I was scared, but I had no choice but to answer her.

“…Because I want my first experience to be with Luna.”

Would my virginity be obvious if I said that?

But what can I do? This is who I am. Even if I try to act cool, sooner or later it will be discovered.

“Ahh, but I don't think it's okay to cheat on you, even if it's not the first time, but... I still can't imagine the future...”

Luna stared at me silently for a while while I explained.

“...You used to like Maria, didn't you?”

“That was when I was in the first year of middle school.”

Even when I answered that, Luna's expression was still not clear.

“I never thought about it, but... it's a very strong feeling to love someone and tell them about it.”

Luna fumbled with her words as if she was chewing them.

“Whenever I think that the person Ryuuto once loved is Maria... I feel helpless. I usually try not to worry about it.”

She mumbled so sadly that my heart sank.

“I feel afraid. That's why... when you called me earlier and said you wanted to 'talk', I thought you might have changed your mind and preferred Maria.”

“Luna.....”

“I'm happy that Ryuuto still thinks of me and appreciates me well... but every time I think that Ryuuto might like Maria in the future, I hate myself for continuing to worry about it...”

Tears appeared in Luna's eyes again.

“Then what should I do?”

I opened my mouth, not knowing what else to do.

“No matter how much I like Luna now, it doesn't change the fact that I liked Kurose-san in the past and confessed my love to her. If that really bothers you, then...”

As I thought about what I was going to say, my throat, eyes, and the inside of my nose became hot.

Seriously?

On the side of the road with people watching... let alone right in front of her.

Despite what I thought, I couldn't stop it.

“We... can't continue this relationship...”

I felt hot drops of water fall from the corner of my right eye.

I was crying. It looked pathetic, but it was the truth.

I was confused, but I couldn't stop the pain in my heart.

Actually, I don't want to say this.

Because I definitely don't want to break up with her.

I want to be with her forever. That's what I feel in my heart.

But...

“But I can't do anything about the past...”

If only I had a time machine and could go back to my first year of middle school.

I would tell myself never to confess my love to another girl because a really nice girl would appear in the future and unexpectedly become my girlfriend.

But I can't do that.

There is no time machine.

Why does Luna only tell me this?

I don't really want... If you say that, I don't want... Luna to go out with someone other than me.

But I feel like I shouldn't say that. Because I already know enough in my head.

If it weren't for past experiences, the current Luna wouldn't be standing in front of me.

“….I'm sorry, Ryuuto. Please don't cry.”

I was startled by the feeling of something soft and silky wiping under my eyes. Apparently, Luna was wiping my eyes with the sleeve of her casual shirt.

She was crying herself.

“I'm the one who's wrong.”

Luna looked at me with red eyes.

“I'm the one who knows better that you can't change the past.”

After saying that, Luna hugged me as if she was jumping into my chest.

“Since Ryuuto is willing to accept me, I will also accept Ryuuto's past. The past where you once liked Maria, everything.”

The scent of flowers or fruit tickled my nostrils, and I held on to the warmth of her touch.

“I want to be a true lover with Ryuuto, so I have to face your past as it is, right?”

Her voice, whispering in my ear, made my heart flutter warmly.

“Luna...”

“I'm sorry, Ryuuto. I won't run away again. No matter what happens to Ryuuto in the future, I promise I'll take care of it.”

After saying that, Luna separated her body from mine and looked at me.

“Come to think of it, the thing that makes me uneasy is not the past, but Ryuuto's current feelings. I thought you still had feelings for Maria somewhere. After all, Maria is a nice and sweet girl.”

“I think Kurose-san is a good girl too.”

I was embarrassed to cry after such a long time, so I sniffed quietly and tried to pretend that nothing had happened.

“That's why I stopped being her friend.”

When I remembered Kurose-san shaking after being attacked by an unknown person, I felt guilty again.

“I like Luna, but I think Kurose-san is a good girl too... so if I continue to be friends with Kurose-san like this, the times when it makes Luna uncomfortable will never come in the future, I'm not saying that for sure.”

So I have no choice but to do this. I hope that the culprit who attacked Kurose-san will be caught soon.

"...Ryuuto, you are really too honest.”

Luna muttered suddenly.

“Most men lie like that. They say sweet words like 'You're the only girl I see' or 'There's no other girl I love besides you.'

Perhaps remembering her past, Luna put her hands behind her back and kicked the gravel lightly.

“But they're still having an affair. The people who say that.”

Her expression clouded and she shook her head.

“That's why I'm tired of such things, which is why I'm happy about Ryuuto's honesty.”

She smiled faintly while muttering and turned around.

“I'm sorry that this is the only way I can do it. If I had been more determined... I might have been able to continue working with Luna's [Friendship Plan].

Luna shook her head from side to side after hearing my words.

“I apologize too. I've made so many mistakes in everything.”

With a bitter look on her face, Luna lowered her head.

“What I want from Maria is not as a 'friend' but as a 'sister'. Making up the so-called 'Friendship Plan' and involving Ryuuto, but in the end, it destroyed the relationship between Ryuuto and Maria...”

The light leaking from the convenience store shone on her white cheeks as she recalled the past with her head bowed. Even in this situation, she still looked very beautiful.

“I was afraid. That's why I didn't do it right. Because Maria hated me.”

She mumbled sadly and raised her face to look at me.

“I'm really sorry for bothering Ryuuto because I didn't have enough courage. For Ryuuto, Maria is your first love. Just because you're dating me doesn't mean you can't think of Maria as a girl...”

Luna continued to speak to me, who couldn't answer anything and continued to stare at her in silence.

“Even so, Ryuuto still says that you like me, but that's why I did something to test Ryuuto...”

Luna forced herself into silence, as if thinking about her actions.

The silence lasted for a few moments.

After thinking for a moment, I opened my mouth.

“I don't think Kurose-san hates Luna at all, really.”

“Ehh......?”

“Kurose-san said it herself. The reason why she transferred to our school was because, 'I wanted to surprise Luna.' But when she saw Luna's reaction, she said that she felt betrayed....that's why she did that.”

As she continued to stare at my face, Luna had a surprised look on her face.

“Besides, she was wearing the moon earrings like she cared about them. She said you gave them to her, right?”

“Eh...”

"I've seen them before. The same moon and star earrings that Luna has. If they were given to her by the sister she hates, how could she carry them around and throw them away long ago, right?”

Luna gasped and put her hand over her mouth in disbelief.

“I see...”

She put her hand to her chest and closed her eyes. Her delicate lashes fluttered gently.

“Maria...”

She felt that the name she called out softly held an unprecedented affection.

Moments later, Luna opened her eyes and showed the determination that had been missing a moment ago.

“I should have known very well that Maria was a stubborn and defiant person. But I've been away from Maria for so long... I think the distance between our hearts began to grow before I realized it.”

As if lamenting the time that had passed, Luna stared at the asphalt and muttered heavily.

“Sometimes, when I talk to her, she says 'I hate you' or has an unfriendly attitude... without realizing it, I started to think that this might be how she really feels, and I can't behave towards Maria the way I used to.”

After saying this, Luna raised her face.

“But if Maria changed schools for me and still has the earrings I gave her... that means Maria's true feelings never changed, right? Then I'll do everything I can to move on.”

The look in her eyes was full of strong determination.

“Not as friends, but to become 'sisters' with Maria again.”

Luna looked straight at me when I saw her make such a decision.

“Thank you, Ryuuto.”

Her smile, accompanied by a white light like moonlight, seemed to dazzle like a goddess.

“Thanks to Ryuuto, I think I was able to regain the important things I had lost.”

 

 

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